BLACK&WHITE

-Monday, December 31, 2007 '

thank you yiling! (:

HAPPY 16TH BIRTHDAY HELENA!

and i still think it isnt fair.

2:53 PM;
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no sweet and nice dreams last night. ): and if i think you'll laugh your head off if you knew what i dreamt. i dreamt about anime. -.- YES. LAUGH LAUGH LAUGH. this happens everytime i get addicted to anime. but somehow, the one i dreamt last night wasnt D.Grayman, or any other anime ive watched before. LOL. i think i created it. HAHAH.

and i like the stories of D.Grayman! (and the reason i didn like it at first would most probably be that the first 2 episodes had none of these stories.) i think they're quite meaningful, and thats why i watch on. :D

back to D.Grayman. EPISODE 47!

3:08 AM;
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-Sunday, December 30, 2007 '

the more im scared of someone, the more likely i am to say wrong things in front of him/her. -sigh- and, the wrong things usually makes him her mad. -sigh again- my brain and my mouth connect the wrong way. ohya, fingers too. my brain and fingers and mouth dont seem to work well together. (i think ive said this before. -.- )

yesterday, i watched 22 episodes of D.Grayman. today, so far, ive watched 16. so, in total, plus those 2 ive watched a month ago, its 40 episodes! HAHA. so fast so fast, WHOOOOO! but, i'll end up waiting for the release of the next episode, very soon. T.T my target: finish watching those that have been posted before year 2008 comes! its a do-able target. :D

i dont like to practice my piano at home, when everyone is home, esp on weekends. it feels as if everyone is listening, though they may be busy with other things. i dont like it. ohya. my flute too. i dont like to play it when everyone is at home. i just dont like the feeling whereby everyone is paying attention (or seems to be paying attention) to the music i make. therefore, i love the school, where no one cares, and also, weekdays, when everyone isnt home. HAH.

i hope #10 comes true.

it just isnt fair.

1:54 PM;
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i feel so down.

5:30 AM;
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i had this super sweet and nice dream last night. HEH. i wont tell anyone. but i told yL already. HEH. i wonder if i got smile in my sleep. it would be so hilarious if i did. HAHAHA.

secondary school life. happy moments, and unhappy ones. somehow im constantly reminded of the unhappy ones. and band life. im constantly reminded of the unhappy ones too. how i wish i can forget, get over, and move on to poly life. but it isnt that easy. im having hopes of a better life in poly, but, i dont want such hopes. -sigh-

stupid people, and their stupid ways of doing things.

competitive people, and their competitive and selfish ways of doing things.

ai mai people, and their dumb ways of settling business.

snobby people, and their deserve-a-slap ways of doing things.

mean girls, and their mean ways of saying people.

i hate all of them.

4:46 AM;
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-Saturday, December 29, 2007 '

my arms are still sore from yesterday's bbq, cos of the fanning of the charcoal la. and my eyes are so tired that they were puffed up, causing me to have single-eyelids all day today. HAH. if you've seen me in single and double eyelids before, you would know i look VERY VERY different. :D

I LOVE THAT FLUTE SOLO FROM SKYHIGH! and im still into princess mononoke, invictus and glacier express, and the other tpjc concert pieces. LOL.

1:53 PM;
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oh dear. i just realised i exceeded my sms limit by a hundred. OH HOHO. and i guess the calls exceeded too. OH HOHO. must be the month of christmas. HAHA. (though i only smsed a few people. LOL.)

yesterday!

had a long chat with yL in the library before going over to the bbq pit. YES I KNOW LIBRARIES ARENT MEANT FOR CHATS. but, we're in the children section, so no one really bothered. i told yL in a shorter time in which i told kok and neko the same thing. (and i got reminded of some unhappy stuffs.) and we gossipped tooooo! :D next time maybe too busy to have this kind of get-togethers already. ):

band bbq was not bad, really. THANK YOU XIAO QIAN, ASHYKIN, RUIYANG, TAMMIE, JASON, JIEXIANG, and ALL THE OTHER SEC 4S for the efforts! WHOOO!

xiaoqian, ashykin and ruiyang were like daddy and mummies feeding all the little kids (including me) with the cooked food. SO NICE! i only helped out at the pit when the juniors were having games. i dont like to crowd with many people, so i sat on the bench or at the playground most of the time. and i dragged yL along with me (sorry ah. =x).

ohya, and then me and yL started talking about the people we dislike, which is them. and yL spotted something worth telling me on this girl, which is one of them. HAHA. but we couldnt tell derek what it is. sorry ah, NC16 stuffs. HAHA.

then after yL went home, i chatted with derek. talked about some funny stuffs which he or i myself encountered, and we were laughing our heads off. and then BEN CHIA NOSE BLED. HAHA. must have been the heaty-ness of the bbq food. kaiqin sounded like some pro in nosebleeding while trying to help. LOL.

thats all for yesterday. HEH.

ridiculous people have a ridiculous way of thinking, talking, reasoning, and of course, socialising. -.-

4:14 AM;
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-Friday, December 28, 2007 '

if im asking you or talking to you, please take the effort to reply me. pressing a few buttons wont cause you to lose your life. tsk. what a waste of my sms. i wanna strangle these kinda people too.

I ALWAYS CANNOT SLEEP WELL WHEN IM WORRIED ABOUT SOMETHING. even if its something minute, like, my handphone battery is going flat, what happens if the alarm doesnt ring next morning and im late in meeting my friends? see. this kind of stupid things. and what that happens the next morning is that, im too worried to sleep well, and i wake on my own, and i find my handphone still has power. -.- this is why i always wake early.

the only times when i can sleep long long WITH worries, are when im super exhausted and have bad muscle ache. for example, after camps and chalets.

oh, slap me and strangle me please.

3:15 AM;
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-Thursday, December 27, 2007 '

my dad actually says my flute playing is nice. -.- ok, im happy, that someone said its nice, but i shldnt be, cos wad my dad says may not be accurate, cos oldies are the only thing that he know about music. LOL. so, im not satisfied. and, im gna work harder, harder, and harder. and he asked if i wanted to have a flute teacher. I WANT! but not now, after i get my dip for piano, which is 2 or 3 years away, i'll get a flute teacher. :D

oh. go here and take the 3 tests. for me, tonedeaf test = 86.1%, adaptive pitch = 1.95hz and rhythm = 68.0%. okay, if my results are worst than yours (or if yours are better than mine), and you laugh, whatever. HAH. but dont come to me and start showing off. i'll slap you i tell you.

ohya, i came across the guy piano-ex on the forum. hes a pianist, as you can see from the username, and i think hes super pro. in one of his posts, he said

"at the topic of saturation of piano teacher, i'm very concerned about this.
There are so many bad piano teacher compared to the good ones. Maybe it sounds
exaggarating but it could be 70-80% bad teacher to 20-30% good teacher ..."

he major in classical piano la. andand, i read the stuffs that he said, and i think its reasonable. LOL.

"Apparently now , music schools are doing more quality control and becoming
more meritocratic. Gone are the days where any tom dick and harry grade 8 cert
holder can land themselves a teaching job in music schools. My piano teacher
told me that now music schools are imposing policies when hiring music teachers.
You get a pass for grade 8 , 45% of your hourly pay goes back to the school ,
you get a merit for grade 8 , 25% of your hourly pay goes back to the school and
if you get a distinction for grade 8 , you get 100% of your hourly pay. It's
something like that lah.... "

maybe im not stopping at dip? it seems as if many are getting their dips, so mine wont worth much too. and somemore mine is LCM cert, not ABRSM one. well, i'll work hard la. poly life is not as stressful, so i guess i'll have more time for music. :D I SOUND AS IF IM AIMING TO BECOME A PIANO TEACHER. LOL! maybe i'll be one, maybe i wont. cos i dont want to be a sucky teacher, and cause my students to do badly in music. so nice of me, eh? HAHA.

3:31 PM;
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I JUST REALISED I DIDN POST ON CHRISTMAS DAY. tsk. nevermind. ANW, I STILL HOPE THAT WISH #10 WILL COME TRUE! SANTA SANTA, PLEASE PLEASE PLEASE, MAKE IT COME TRUE!

yes, im back to mapling. no, im not playing for the real thing. im just playing out of curiousity, and boredom. I LOVE JR. GRUPINS! they're so cute, so adorable! its so enjoyable killing them. HAHA.

ok, i tried to make it not so pixelised already. ITS CUTE RIGHT. HAHAHA.

and i think there are quite a lot of bo liao people in maple. they waste so much money to shout thru the megaphone or whatever thing. somemore, is those scold people kind. yesterday was christmas day, i didn know scolding people on christmas was meaningful for them. tsktsktsk.

today i shall spend lesser time mapling, or maybe even not mapling.

secrets. they're so hard to be kept to ourselves, even more so when the secret is still fresh in our mind. but after the some time, they wont try to make their way out anymore.

lies. its hard to believe you anymore. what - said is true. as much as i try to open my heart to try to believe you, i cant. maybe its because you're a cold liar, maybe because i didn try hard enough. but anw, im not trying anymore. all the best.

2:00 AM;
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-Tuesday, December 25, 2007 '

oh damn you damn you damn you damn you damn you. and i wanna strangle you with my tentacles. and suck the life out of you with my super suckers. DAMN YOU. [im not referring to anyone or anything that happened today. i just got reminded of something that happened sometime ago.]

i wore slippers to school today. and i wasnt allowed to enter. -.- damn you. den i went to borrow from peishing (THANKS YA!) and then met up with kok. and the security guard that refused to let me in was on patrol. tsk. den i shldnt have spent so much effort la. today isnt my day. D:

den fluted a while. and i tried out the new exercises that chien teng taught. maybe im still not used to the new posture la. HEH. den had committee meeting. was a little draggy (this is what i felt la), and i think it would be much more easier if only one or two or three people are in charge of settling the quantity of food to be bought. den the rest help in buying can already. (:

and DONT LAUGH AT ME WHEN IM TRYING MY VERY BEST TO UNDERSTAND JIEXIANG. ehhh. he know so many things that i dont know la. so suaku of me. music, i play and play, and i dont understand wad that is actually going on. thats so sad. i shall try to understand la. as long as i try, i will be able to face myself. :D scales, they're really important. i used to find them very boring, but not now. theres so many many things to do. i wonder if i will be able to make full use of the 3 months.

den capt ball after lunch. initially i was quite bored. but then later, it was better la. :D and i keep injuring that right ring finger of mine. its healing already, and i injured it again, when i tried to smack away the ball from bs's TIGHT grip. thats why it got injured, again. -.-

sigh. im home tmr. entire day. so boring. and the day after tmr too. sigh. sigh. sigh. den bbq on thursday. den no plans on friday, saturday, sunday and monday, and so on. my flute and piano shall accompany me. i think im having zibizhen leh. HAH.

and yongxiang, dont emo larrrrrrr. :D tmr christmas leh. dont emo dont emo. (:

11:46 AM;
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-Monday, December 24, 2007 '

heres my wishlist. :D

#1 a white baby grand

#2 THAT lappy

#3 a super single bed!
#4 a miyazawa fluteee. :D

#5 an atm card! (im really desperate for this!)
#6 HAMSTERS! (this time, i wont give them away!)

#7 chip and dale plushie!

#8 better piano and flute skills. :D
#9 (a secret!)
#10 (a secret toooo!)

the last few are the most important ones. esp #9 and #10. but #10 is not for me though. its for someone. (: the mostmostmostmostmostmostmostmostmost important one is #10. really. i hope that THAT particular wish can be fulfilled, the earlier, the better. (: but i think i wont tell anyone what #9 and #10 is. so dont ask. (:

ohya. initially, i wanted red vaio. buden, i think a lot of people want it. sigh. nevermind, i shall take pink or champagne gold, if someone offers to buy for me. :D

and therefore, if anyone of you is getting me a christmas present, #7 will do! cos i dont think you guys can afford the rest. some cant even be bought. HAHA. oh oh oh, i shall ask santa to get me the super expensive items. HAHAHA. (why do we hope when we all know santa doesnt exist. -.-)

and i think my parents arent getting me anything. SIGH. byebye atm card. ):

10:06 AM;
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OH BTW.

dearest luncheon, i wasnt trying my best to make you envious ah. i would still describe the movie in this way if you went. really. (:

-sotonggg (:

5:44 AM;
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watched alvin and the chipmunks yesterday. THEY'RE SO CUTE! AHAHAHA. buden, chipmunks look 10 times more horrible than that. HEH. and, i love theodore (the green one). so fat so chubby, SO CUTE. HAHAHA. and they actually say i look like alvin, the red one.

we went to the pets safari at vivo before getting ourselves food for the movies. and GOSH! THE HAMSTER ARE SOSOSO CUTE! i only had brown face roborovskis before. they had white face ones! THEY'RE SOSOSO CUTE. and eight of them live together. next time, when i buy hamsters, i shall go there and buy, and i wont buy one or two only, i will buy the whole family home. SERIOUS! cos i couldnt bear to separate them. its like once you buy them (or in other words, separate them), they wont get to see each other again! imagine if this happened to our families, WONT YOU FEEL SO DEVASTATED?

we didn have enough fun after the movies, and so we went to far east, and alfred and weijie had to go home first. did a makeover for vincci, and we discovered his hidden side. i got myself 2 tops, and one of them is a LITTLE MISS WHOOPS top. this kinda top is common, but i like it anw. HAHA.

and as for the other top, my parents sort of disallow me to wear it. they're driving me mad, really. canot this one, canot that one. and i wanted to have an atm card for convenience, (and i wanted it as a christmas present) but they said no. FINE. everything canot. contact lens also canot. den tell me, wad is a can-do? i only went out more after the O's, and they said im going out too much. HELLOOOO. i didn even go out since may/june okayy.

i wanted to go school for committee meeting for the band bbq tmr. they said "you're going out too much". den next time when i need to go sch, i shall skip lessons, and then tell them "cos you said im going out too much.". DAMN. my dad even said i said "tmr is my last time", when i didn. i was really stunned, they were so desperate till they had to resort to these measures. and then they say i can throw away my piano already. THROW LO. then they shall get me a new one. this time, i want a white baby grand. see if you can afford it. HAH.

anw, i want a nice christmas, a duper nice one. but im not allowed to go out. sigh. i feel like tweety bird, being caged all the time. when i escape, sylvester (my parents) will go all out to hunt me. but anw, i shall make a wishlist. even when im unable to get the items i want. i can still wish, cant i?

i promise i wont keep everything to myself. (: and im sorry. =x

4:14 AM;
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-Saturday, December 22, 2007 '

i think hamsters are super cute. they're stinky too. anw, i love them la. HAHA. im sooooo gonna have one or two in future. i used to have them leh. LOL.

2:38 PM;
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thanks to vincent, im suffering from autism now. if neko didn delete that video, i could have uploaded it here, but its not his fault la, cos i said okay when he wanted to delete. :D

today's big fun under the sun was nice, at least it wasnt big sleep under the moon anymore. (: and mdm oen really had tons to say for the speech. -.- and then it was mr phor's turn. =.= waited for like ages before we could hear the band perform. LOL. not bad la, really. and im proud of them. at least wad they played made me smile. (:

den they had capt ball. i didn join them at first. cos i was fluting. HEH. i wasnt alone in the canteen, cos there were the bookshop people, whom im not really familiar with. i tried my very best to get the running notes for noah's ark right, but sadly, i could only do it with a slow tempo. I WILL GET IT RIGHT. by the end of this year, this month, before next year comes. hopefully, everything will be better with my 2nd serious try. (:

den i joined them for capt ball, and then, the uniform groups joined in to play. i was really pissed off by - cos of his way of defending. i said many many times, but when i couldnt tahan anymore, i screamed la. DAMN. it was only then when he took me seriously. maybe you're pissed off or whatever too, but, i only care about scoring, and nothing else. andandand, theres this - who keeps saying we were too hyper, and too rough. oh please. if we were rough right, all the band instruments would have changed dont know how many sets already. ehhh, okay la, maybe i exaggerated too much. but i think the guys from the opponent team is much more rougher than the band people. i dont like the - who were statues of liberty, and somemore talk so much. they might as well dont - - - . HAH. HAPPY GUESSING PEOPLE.

and they had water war just now. i didn join in cos mama isnt happy when i go home all wet. so i was rather dry. and since they were engaged in the water war, i had nothing to do. so i bounced the ball, and threw it, and bounced. if you didn know me, i would look as if im mad. kok they all said that i looked as if i had zibizhen(autism). HEH. (i had to look up on the dictionary to find the correct spelling. give me a pat for that. (: ) and i dont deny i planned an assault on alfred. HAH. but i missed it. LOL!

im going out again tmr! to the cinema and TOYS R'US. HEH. smart people will know why. stupid people will also know why too. ANW, THOSE WHO ARE HUMANS WILL KNOW WHY. :D

1:35 PM;
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-Friday, December 21, 2007 '

was chatting with chien teng a moment ago about his flute competition.

funk` d says:
wad competition is it?
funk` d says:
oh.
funk` d says:
i shall go there and scream your name
funk` d says:
HAHAHA
funk` d says:
anw,
Chien Teng - Dogs Are Ownage. says:
;p;
funk` d says:
im going to sleep already
Chien Teng - Dogs Are Ownage. says:
lol*
Chien Teng - Dogs Are Ownage. says:
i think if u scream my name u will be sent out
funk` d says:
nites.
funk` d says:
REALLY?
Chien Teng - Dogs Are Ownage. says:
scream name is not for competitinos..
funk` d says:
OHH.
Chien Teng - Dogs Are Ownage. says:
u dun hear ppl csreaming names in SYF rite..
funk` d says:
OH.
Chien Teng - Dogs Are Ownage. says:
LOL!
Chien Teng - Dogs Are Ownage. says:
u really very suaku
funk` d says:
i thot is those concert kind
Chien Teng - Dogs Are Ownage. says:
lol
funk` d says:
-.-
funk` d says:
YES.
funk` d says:
I KNOW LA.
Chien Teng - Dogs Are Ownage. says:
competition. lol
Chien Teng - Dogs Are Ownage. says:
kk .. gdnitez!!
Chien Teng - Dogs Are Ownage. says:
dun be so suaku! ~~
funk` d says:
nites.
funk` d says:
-.-
funk` d says:
NOT I WANT DE!
funk` d says:
IS I BORN LIKE THAT ONE.
funk` d says:
-cries-
funk` d says:
OKI.
Chien Teng - Dogs Are Ownage. says:
haha
funk` d says:
nites.
funk` d says:
(:
Chien Teng - Dogs Are Ownage. says:
can born liddat 1 meh
Chien Teng - Dogs Are Ownage. says:
[cry emoticon]
Chien Teng - Dogs Are Ownage. says:
ok!! bb
Chien Teng - Dogs Are Ownage. says:
[smile emoticon]
(credits to chien teng, i didn ask for permission, but i credit you. (: )

yes, im suaku. he said "u really very suaku" cos the first thing i suaku about is i didn know HDB units can be like #11-3456 as in the 4 numbers that part. cos ive only seen 2 or 3 numbers one. okayyyyy. im suaku cos i dont bother to know la, not im born like that. HAH.

alright. GOOD NITES!

(jolene and chien teng, im actually appearing offline when im blogging this, cos i need that msn window. HEH. but this took me only 10 minutes. :D)

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the tpjc concert pieces keep running through my head. they keep playing over and over again. esp first suite in Eb and invictus (the dreamy part) and mononoke hime medley.

i dont like it when people discourage me or show disapproval in my wish for pursuing my interests. they give reasons like "its a waste of time", or "that one no future one". they also give reasons like "dont do that, this one is more important". then when i say i did that already just now, they just shake their heads. WHY!?! nows the time for me to do whatever i want right? otherwise i have to wait for many years later. den when i explain more, they say "ahya, you go do whatever you want la" in those irritated tone. PLEASE! im the one who is irritated alright. you're not me, so you dont really understand my priorities. tsk. again, i want to strangle this kind of people.

MONONOKE HIME!

3:24 PM;
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its raining again. T.T

i slept very long last night. like 13hrs? maybe yesterday's game drained me out completely. LOL. im still tired now. very tired. maybe i'll nap laterrrr.

tmr im going sch again! to see how the juniors are playing big sleep under the moon, as wad kok keong says. i hope its not as dead. hopefully, the drummer will come tmr. HAH.

bro is still not home from prom night last night, cos he went over to his friend's hse. how nice. my mom definitely wont allow me to do that, cos im a girl. sometimes, i feel its unfair, but, i understand my mom's kind intention of that.

CHRISTMAS IS COMING. THAT MEANS CZ'S BIRTHDAY IS COMING. HAHA. so lucky of him to be born on christmas day. HOW I WISH MY BIRTHDAY WAS A SPECIAL DAY TOO. HAH.

OBA wants capt ball again tmr. you're really very fit leh. dont look or seem like an OBA. tmr im not playing. HAHAHA. cos i think its super tiring. plus, i have sth else in mind to do. HEH. (:

TAG PEOPLE, TAG! i wanna strangle those who read without tagging. TSK. IS HALOSCAN REALLY THAT MAFAN?!? TSK!!!

those heavy eyelids. tsk.

5:46 AM;
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-Thursday, December 20, 2007 '

rain rain RAIN. everyday rain. tsk. so irritating. i bet mosquitoes love this kind of weather. and the reason why i dislike it is cos there are more mosquitoes now! i love this kind of temperature, really, but i love it without the mosquitoes. TSK.

went to school today. prac flute awhile den went down to see the juniors. and omg. the standard has dropped so much since the concert. im utterly disappointed. i hope you people are merely out of practice, and that this is not the real band without seniors. you guys looked sososo dead. play oso no expression, face oso no smile. and somemore i see many empty chairs. everything is just sososo draggy and all, and no one bothers to watch jason. sighs. i hope there will be a miracle on friday, and you guys will be welcoming the new batch of sec ones with smiles and not gloomy faces.

den after that. capt ball awhile, den card games. i think card games are boring, but anw, i prac flute again. and i received a compliment from kok. YAY! and so, while they played card games, i played music. but after sometime, the rain stopped and its back to capt ball. (:

i know i make THOSE sounds during game. LOL. paiseh ah, i cant control. and i love to laugh while playing capt ball. EH HEH. though im not very tall, i enjoy being the goalie. HAHA. i love to stretch to catch the ball, and not jump. HAH.

i dislike it when people give me attitude and then say my attitude sucks. damn you. you're the one giving attitude, and im being very nice to not argue back. cos i know no matter how much i argue, your attitude is still as sucky as ever. so why bother? i'll just let you be like that. i dont give attitude for no reason one. but anw, i didn give any today. damn you.

IM HAPPY TODAY COS I PLAYED A LOT, AND GOT COMPLIMENTS. IM HAPPY TODAY ALSO COS IM GOING BACK TO TPJC NEXT YEAR!

I MISS MELISSA JOLENE AND CHIEN TENG A LOT!

12:53 PM;
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-Wednesday, December 19, 2007 '

one of my prom photos. this one is with natalie(flute). i think this is the best one out of the photos that bs sent me. my mama says i always stick out my head like an ostrich to lean over to my friend when im taking photos. ok, true la. this one didn the lean as much, so i chose to post this one post. the one that i leaned the most is with neko and doreen. -sigh- my bad habit.

i love my hairdo. HEH. esp the curls, i think 20dollars is worth it. HAHA. plus 30 dollars for makeup. yes, still worth it. once in a life time in school life. HEH.

as for poly prom, i may consider going/not going. i shall get some comments from my bro. if he thinks its fun and worth it, i'll go. but anw, ITS STILL 3 YEARS AWAYYYY. LOL.

sooooo many people changed their numbers these few days. REALLY. like 5 to 6 people leh. LOL.

1:32 PM;
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prom nite yesterday. i didn enjoy it a lot. the part where i enjoyed the most is perhaps the phototaking part? ya, i think so.

there was much excitement before dressing up and all. the excitement only came when we did our hair, and makeup. cos we (yL, hk, yy and me) chnged quite a lot. (jocelyn even said she couldnt recognise me from the side. LOL.) make up really work wonders. buden, i wont use it sososo often cos i think its not good for the skin. maybe my way of thinking would chng when i am older, and have to rely heavily on makeup. HAH.

back to prom. anw. we were super super late. we were supposed to be seated by 6.30pm, but we left home at only 6.35pm. its unusual for me to be sososo late i think. usually i would only be late by about 15mins? we cabbed there, and the rain made everything more irritating. tsk.

reached. and felt that everything was not really enjoyable. maybe its just me or whatever. only certain parts were hilarious. and and and, YILING GOT NOMINATED FOR PROM QUEEN. ehh, by who i dont know. LOL. anw, i think she was the 2nd runner-up, and was crowned MS BABE. khairiyah was damn funny to shout "OH YILING YOU SEX BOMB" all those stuffs.

ohya, i caught boonsiong wearing the black shirt from the zhuan1 shu3 tian1 shi3 performance. HAHA. anw, the guys all looked very good last night. i think neko looks CUTE last night. and the handsome-est one is still KOK. HAHA. please dont quote this into your blog again. LOL.

anw, we ran away when its time for dance. we dont want to dance la. LOL. dont know dance den go dance floor, like so stiff. HAH. den took more pictures and left.

im gng school tmr. miss those juniors like hell. and and and. i will practice my flute when they are having combined band practices. i need more breath! and, i dont want to waste this precious holiday of mine. im not gna work, just gna practice music. i dont think its lifeless. HAH. (:

LASTLY,

HAPPY HAPPY 16TH BIRTHDAY CHIEN TENG!
im so nice aint i? and im faster than you! :D
you know, you sort of motivated me to work harder in music!
thats why im not wasting the 3 months before poly reopens. (:
but anw, KEEP IN TOUCH! :D

when im down, pulling a long face in front of me wont do you any good. but when im up and alright, pulling a long face in front of me would do you some.

4:46 AM;
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-Tuesday, December 18, 2007 '

i dont think im gna work anymore. so, bye bye extra money. LOL

after prom nite, im gna cut away those fingernails (its too long for me to play the piano), and practice hard hard hard. 3 months of holiday to brush up on everything. (since i said my fingernails are long, you guys can guess how long i never touch my piano already. HAH.) piano exam is on the last week of march, my tcher says. buden, i may go back to school once in a while to see how the juniors are doing. :D

i kinda miss tpjc band prac. suddenly, everything feels so empty. i miss the people there as well. i dont know when im gna see the 4 flautists again. and, i miss shuqi from percussion too. ive never spoken to her before (other than saying "sorry" cos i bumped into her). buden, she's super funny la. HAHA. her actions really very very cute. :D ohya, i wonder how disgusting the dead snail has turned into now. LOL.

im off to prom nite preparations now. laterrrrr. i think i'll only be back tmr morning. HEH.

5:17 AM;
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-Monday, December 17, 2007 '

i feel like strangling people now. TSK. im not a psycho or whatever, so if you dont offend me or whatever, i wont strangle you. :D

and, i hate it when people yell at me or talk to me so loudly when i talk to them nicely and politely. thats so rude. these kind of people have no basic courtesy. damn you. and i wanna strangle you too. TSK. OHYA. when i say "why you like that? i talked to you nicely leh.", they dont even bother to say "oh, im sorry." or apologise about it. they just keep quiet and do their own things. RUDE PEOPLE. tsk.

im so sorry yongxiang, but im using "tsk" again. HAH.

12:20 PM;
&I'll let it all end here.

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did last minute prom shopping today. i went with mama and bro first, cos he has prom nite on 19dec2007, which is 2 days after my prom nite. den after bro got his blazer, he went home. mama and i continue shopping.

after i got some of my stuffs, yueyin came to meet me during her break, and we got her accessories and heels. i think her heels are quite high, as compared to mine, cos mine is like only 2cm high. HAHA.

den after that, she went back to her work already. SHE BOUGHT ALL HER STUFFS WITHIN ONE HOUR. FAST LEH. den i shopped more with mama, den went home.

shopping feels good leh. a few days ago, i was rather down, den mama shopped with me at juntion8 before tpjc band prac(which was why i was late for our last last last sectionals). and it felt so good, although the spree only lasted for only one hour. :D

i apologise if this entry is like tone-less, or monotone. im happy cos i shopped a lot today, but im tired cos i shopped a lot today. so, everything went back to how it began. LOL.

lastly, HAPPY BIRTHDAY NEKO-MIMI-CHAN. may your whiskers grow longer, and your fur be ultra fine. :D

prom nite tmr. oh hoho, im so excited. -.-

10:54 AM;
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-Sunday, December 16, 2007 '

tpjc concert is over. thank you natalie, jingyi, bs, weikiat, jason, elsen, alfred, yongxiang, vincent, weijie, ruiyang and junxian, (random order), for taking time to make your way down to tampines jc. THANKS SO MUCH!

concert was rather successful. some said our pieces are nice. HEH. i love rumble on the high plains, esp the triumphantly part. and also the promise, and also mononoke hime medley, and also EL CUMBANCHERO. i played some parts wrongly, the loudest was at first suite in Eb, the intermezzo part. i was supposed to play Eb den i go play E. tsk. stupid me. sometimes, my finger and mind doesnt connect. den march-bou-shu oso. i thot i came in at the wrong part, den i stopped at 151, until the familiar repeating melody came back, den i joined in. and i caused quite a lot of tuning problems. -sigh- i stop playing when i hear clashes. reflex? maybe.

theres quite a number of people i want to thank:

melissa, for putting in so much effort for chien teng's birthday, and the polaroid photo.
jolene, for the chocolates and candy cane, and the card.
jasmine, for the coin bank.
chien teng, for the keychain.
nat and jingyi for that CUTE flower.

i'll definitely miss the tpjc people. they're so super friendly. (ive said this for dont know how many times already.) ive only known jolene, melissa and chien teng for less than 2 WEEKS, and after the concert, i dont know when we'll meet again. if fsmb didn have concert, i would probably have known the 3 of them earlier. weikiat was quite surprised that jolene wrote a card for me even though she knew me for less than 2 weeks. LOL.

and and, although i knew chien teng for less than 2 weeks, i made him mad already. LOL. one of which happened a few days ago. today oso, before we left. SORRY CHIEN TENG. my juniors are mad about your skills. HAHA.

i dont like it when people talk about secrets in front of me, when they whisper and whisper and whisper. den when i ask wad is it about, they refuse to tell. if you dont want to let me know in the first place, den dont let me know that you have a secret. this kind of feeling is rather irritating. and, if you're guessing things about me and things related to me, dont do it in front of me either. i'd rather you ask me straight away. really. and try not to guess things about me behind my back too. i dont like the feeling of it.

i think --- is good-looking. melissa definitely know who im talking about. (: but then, i dont think i'll see him anytime soon. LOL. i just think that hes good-looking. NOTHING ELSE. im not a psycho who keeps staring at him or whatever. LOL.

ALRIGHTS. IM OFF TO SLEEP NOW. IM SUPER DUPER TIRED. NITES.

5:37 PM;
&I'll let it all end here.

-Saturday, December 15, 2007 '

tpjc concert is tmr. and so we had practice yesterday and today. busy, tiring, but its enjoyable. :D ohya, thanks melissa and chien teng for pei-ing me for dinner today. HEH. (: and i just realised that clarice and clarence were siblings today. -.-

tmr marks the last day im playing with them. BOOHOO. i'll miss them a lot lot lot! even those guest players from other schools too, like chien teng. -WAVES FRANTICALLY- HAHA. i think the ticket sales is quite good already. YAY! i only managed to sell 2, but kok sold 10. -.- and at least we wont be playing to an empty hall. (:

prom shopping is still here and there only. quite a number of things not bought. and now, its only 3 days away from prom nite. im not looking very forward to it. after monday, everything will be fine. HAHA. den back to fuhua to see those juniors once again.

i got to practice my piano real real hard. next year got exam. =S tcher say must pass, otherwise will clash with poly exams in july/august if i retake. so i may not be working. sighs. there goes my extra money.

of course there are limits to everything.

4:24 PM;
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-Friday, December 14, 2007 '

people, if you see this entry,
PLEASE GO SUPPORT TPJC BAND CONCERT!
i know its far, buden, PLEASE GO.
ive been smsing people,
with no replies,
and also,
asking yongxiang to help me ask around.
AHYO.
6dollars per ticket.
quite affordable.
and some replies were "sorry.broke."
ok. at least this person replied la.
GO GO GO!

2:17 AM;
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im mad now. but i dont wish to say anything here.

my hunt for cheap (or VERY AFFORDABLE. HEH.) metallic blue ties has failed. in the end, jolene found them at far east. buden, i dont know what happened, and jolene said clarence is gng get them for us. (i hope its still cheapppp. :D)

I KNOW HOW TO TAKE OUT MY CONTACTS LE. finally. buden, the experience last night was rather awful. firstly, my left eye. there were 3 or 4 attempts. den during the last attempt. the contact lens came out halfway already, but i didn know. i thot it was still inside. i was so fustrated that i rubbed my eyes hard. (i know it sounds disgusting. =x ) den to my surprise, the brown lens dropped on my thigh. LOL! den for my right eye, i had more attempts. but during the last attempt, my mama's voice frightened me, den i accidentally pushed the contacts onto the white part of the eye. (i forgot wad its called already. HAHHA.) den i thot i lost it. den i attempted to shift it back into place. buden, i only managed to shift it down a little, and it became folded. (OMG. IT REALLY WAS LIKE THAT.) dendenden, i took it out. OMG. xiasiwo leh. ehhh. it was an awful experience la. the next time i take out my contacts, i gna lock the door and ask everyone to shut up. LOL.

and i finally bought the book from hooikim! YAY!

ok. tpjc laterrrr. but before that, i gng central check out the hairdressing price for prom nite. den oso go check out shoes for yueyin. and i need to get my black blouse for attire check later. im sososo last minute, even i cant stand myself. LOL.

laterrr.

1:54 AM;
&I'll let it all end here.

-Wednesday, December 12, 2007 '

tpjc yesterday. they said since dinner was disastrous last evening, they're going to mass order food for everyone. food like PIZZA HUT. LOL.

and finally, flute section will be wearing blue tie. -.- jolene melissa and i agreed on metallic blue. ehh. at first i said baby blue, when i had the colour of metallic blue in my mind. -.- ok, i dont know the name of that colour. HAHA. but anw, i'll be going tie-hunting while going prom shopping tmr. HEH. i think i'll meet some people by chance when im outside. (:

I FINALLY KNOW HOW TO PUT ON CONTACTS. but i dont know how to take out. i told kk when i made this achievement, den he said "but you know how to take out?". tsk. know how to put in already very very good for me, when a few weeks ago i dont even dare to touch my eyeballs. LOL.

ohya, im emo no more la. HAHHAA.

LASTLY.

H
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thats wad you get for having super big eyes and not tagging. HAHA. ok, kidding. x)

2:46 AM;
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-Monday, December 10, 2007 '

did spring cleaning with papa, to clear my sec 2 stuffs. actually is i do alone. all he did was to ans my qns, when i asked him "throw or dont throw". i threw away many many things. and now, i feel quite guilty. cos i threw away many files, ehhh, all of them are made of plastics. OMG. ltr produce poisonous gas upon combustion. OK. i swear im not going to buy so many files again. esp ring files, cos this ring rusts.

my bro's gna wear contacts too. his prom nite is 2 days away from mine. and he bought all his clothes already, when im out at tpjc. i still haven buy a single thing for prom nite. i only dyed my hair. :D since hes wearing contacts too, i need not hide my stuffs anymore. HAH. and mama says only for this month. HAHA. no wayyy. im gna wear whenever i feel like it. x)

ok. now im bored. bored of neopets. ( i missed out 8days of advents calendar, cos im simply too lazy to go to that web. HAH. )

christmas is coming! (which means cz's birthday is coming.) AND A NEW YEAR IS COMING. ehhhh, nothing to be joyous about. HAH.

some people dont honour their promises. tsk.

7:21 AM;
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tpjc ytd. the snail that i killed by accident is still there, but it turned black already. (last touch was kok. not me. :D )

there was sectional, and we (flautists) did more of individuals. but we did combine a little here and there. we chatted more, and knew more about each other. anw, that Genting that i mentioned earlier was actually Chien Teng, i think. his name is something like that. chinese name is jian ting. he is actually the band major of maris stella. (ehhh. actually, no surprise, since hes so pro in flute. HEH.) and he stereotyped me. tsk. we were talking about the courses we took in secondary school, and when it was me, he said, "you, triple science? you look more like a single science!". TSK. (actually, i dont really mind. :D )

one more week till i part with the people there. they're ultra friendly. i would be quite reluctant to withdraw at first from the concert, buden now, its a straight NO. HAHA. i love the people there la. HAHHAA. melissa, jolene and i agreed on whole section same coloured tie, buden, chien teng is wearing blue tie with his maris friends. -.- ok, nevermind. HAHA. i will really be reluctant to part with them leh. x( andand, if im gng jc, i would go tpjc, even though its far, buden, the people there are very friendly. HAHA. but first choice is still poly. (:

its fun looking at how yongxiang squirm like a wormy-pig when hes tickled. nevertheless, hes still a nice junior. yongxiang, you happy? HAHAHA. alright, i shall say vincent and kaiqin too. they're both nice juniors. :D

ehhhh. i used to be ok with people looking into my inbox. but now, no. i hate it i tell you. if you peep, dont blame me for being cold towards you. tsk. i need privacy. and i hate people hacking into my account. yes, im talking about you. that was my account alright. you took it, converted it into your account. and i got it back. and you hacked it and treated it as yours. damn you. i hate you ya know. irritating people. tsk. these people never fail to make my blood boil. (note: para is about 2 different people. (: )

and finally,

HI KENNETH!

-waves frantically-

4:34 AM;
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-Saturday, December 08, 2007 '

kok is damn damn handsome now. with the new hair colour and the grey contacts. really.

tpjc ytd was alright. that flute Genting is a grade 8 flautist. no wonder so pro. his running notes so clear and precise leh, even when the notes is not running in seconds. SO SO SO PRO! ok. im suaku.

my eyes dont feel good today. i feel like going back to my nice sweet and warm slumber.

medical appt and capt ball later.

tired. of everything. tsk. (YONGXIANG DONT LIKE THE WORD "TSK". HAHAHA. ) buden, i got this positive feeling that i will - . do guess. (: i hope it'll turn out to be trueeee. (:

2:40 AM;
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-Friday, December 07, 2007 '

I HAVEN BEEN GOING TO NEOPETS TO GET MY ADVENT'S CALENDAR FREEBIES. -.-

got those brown things ytd. they're so hard to use. and i had to ask qt to help me put them in. EHHH. please go to kk's blog if you wish to know more. HAH. and they say those brown things are compatible with me. YAY! :D oh oh oh. THANKS QT AND YL FOR HELPING ME WITH THEM. yL very nice ah. she didn get angry though i couldnt put them in after one hour. -.- qt too. she didn get angry when i say her fingernails. =x THANKS SO MUCH!

HIGHLIGHTED MY HAIR YTD. my hair is now, streaks of red, with super dark brown. HAH. ltr gng qt's hse to use learn how to use those brown things again. HAH.

ohya. yongxiang, kaiqin, vincent, alfred. they all are nice juniors. :D

i regret for being so ai mai. tsk. seriously. if in my whole life, there wasnt a single bit of ai mai- ness, my life would have been better. and i would have been happier. i regret, A LOT.

piano lesson later. tpjc later too. gosh. my schedule is really tight. after piano, to qt's hse. after that, tpjc till 9pm. yes, kok is right. maybe our hair would get us banned from tpjc. HAH.

im just feeling so down these few days. :/

laterrrr.

1:06 AM;
&I'll let it all end here.

-Wednesday, December 05, 2007 '

went tpjc band today. ehhh. i like their concert pieces leh. (although some i cant play. HAHA.) I WILL TRY MY BEST THOUGH. and! i love princess mononoke medley!

theres this super pro guy called Genting (i wonder if its spelt like that. =x ), and its a must watch concert! MUST GO MUST GO! theres a Melissa in their section too! and i very very scared at times la. and i was sight-reading this ultra fast piece called EL CUMBANCHERO. a very nice piece! (: and i will practice it HARD HARD and SUPER HARD! (theres fluttering. HAHAH!)

ok. this is what they are going to play.

march bou-shu
glacier express
rumble on the high plains
princess mononoke medley
invictus
(intermission)
first suite in Eb
japanese graffiti 4
pirates of the carribean: the curse of the black pearl (different from ours too)
the promise (arr./composed by their senior)
a christmas festival (a same version but different key from that one that we received previously.)
- (encore piece)

i think this is the order.
HAHA.

i dont know if i left any out. EHHH. go imeem find the songs. you shld be able to find most of them. HEH. i LOVE their percussion section! they're like sososo happening! and theres this percussion girl who is very very funny! ehh, the entire band is very funny la. HAHHAA.

ohya. and i dyed my hair already. i think i wasted $15.90 on that DIY dye. before dyeing and after dyeing no difference. TSK. waste my mama's money. buden, at least melissa (tpjc) saw the difference. HAHA. tmr gng highlight and get contacts, and also go learn how to wear contacts. -.- yes, very stupid. but i dont know how to wear. at least the optician will teach me. YAY.

i lovelovelove princess mononoke medley. ITS SOSOSO NICENICENICE. HAH. go imeem listen! GO GO GO!

i forgot to mention that Genting plays the piccolo too. he really really really damn damn damn pro. hes from maris stella la. AND, his playing in - (our encore piece) really superb. hes the same age as me. i wonder how this kind of people learn the flute. though i in flute for 2 years only, i dont think the other 2 years will make that much difference. HAH.

and, i think my wallet/purse eats money. i took out 50bucks ytd, and now, im left with 15bucks. -.- if i dont include the 10bucks i use for topping up my ezlink card, i would have 25 bucks missing. i recall already, my cab fare not included in this entire expenditure. TSK. moneymoney i need you~

im alright already. i wont hope anymore. tsk.

3:21 PM;
&I'll let it all end here.

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im heartbroken.

i poured out everything to qt, and instead, i got scolded by her. but at least that woke me up. (: thanks qt. (:

2:59 AM;
&I'll let it all end here.

-Tuesday, December 04, 2007 '

band concert was a success!
OH YEAH!

shall blog about it later. cos im in a rush now. HEH. mac's filet-o-fish meal gave me a diarrhoea. tsk.

i LOVE:

FSMB!
MS CHONG! (she cried yesterday, and refused to admit it, and simply stuffed a cookie in mouth to shut me up. the cookie was extremely delicious! i love you ms chong! )
NATALIE!
JINGYI!
HUILIN!
MELISSA!
YILING!
QINGTONG!
ENCHANTED!
PAPA & MAMA!
& MY FLUTE! (SMUACKS!)

okay, everything is summarised. enjoy reading, and of cos, guessing wad im trying to say (again). HAHAHA.

and kenneth! ask you go prom like ask you go die like that. you stubbornness really make people's blood boil you know. TSK. you're sososo INDECISIVE! tsk tsk TSK!

3:28 AM;
&I'll let it all end here.

-Sunday, December 02, 2007 '

i love my section more than i thought i did.
seriously flautists.
i think there was a strong bond between us, but i didn notice it till today.
but NEVERMIND.
tmr,

sunday,

first concert,

last performance.

i will put in all my effort.
like what kkq said in his pm,
we've prepared for this concert for so long,
theres so much anticipation for success,
the months of preparation,
the lactic acid that we've produced in our arms and jaws(HAHA! OK, out of point.),
and we will make sure that we make HIGH QUALITY MUSIC within the 2 hours.

i thought of sososo many things during the last rehearsal today.
i was a little disappointed because of something,
buden,
i realised i was disappointed because of this strong bond within the section.
and then,
i broke down during pirates of carribean.
thanks for the concern, flautists.
(i always break down when nearing performance or competitions. =x )

and i made the quartermaster badges already!
they're ultra flimsy,
so ehhh,
ya,
you want wear,
or dont want wear,
up to the QM's to decide. (:

and i bought my DIY dye already.
its brown.
i decided to dye brown lah.
HAHAHA.
cos mama say red is for aunties. -.-
after dyeing and highlighting (and probably a little trimming of hair. :D ),
theres still a lot of things to do, like PROM SHOPPING!

okay.
sorry natalie, im still awake.
and you didn call us to check on us. HAHAHA.
and thanks to those people who wished us best of luck.
jericho solos tmr, BEST OF LUCK TO ME.

i will miss fsmb band members.
i will come back.
I'LL BE BACK. (MUAHAHAHAHA.)

ALL THE BEST TO EVERYONE TMR,
ESP THE SOLOISTS!
(i know im lor-saw, HAH.)

okay,
BYEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEE. :D

3:23 PM;
&I'll let it all end here.

-Saturday, December 01, 2007 '

i dont like the way my papa behaves when he loses a quarrel. we start quarrelling, and im the one blabbering non-stop, giving him no time to argue back. den he ends up losing the quarrel, den he will say "you very defiant hor.". pleaseeee. if you never provoke me or whatever, i wouldnt even want to waste time quarrelling. quarrelling and arguments waste a whole lot of your time in your entire life you know. its pointless to quarrel most of the time. and he cant take "rude" jokes. how sad, how lifeless, how boring. :/

today, we went school to PLAY. hard-core playing. was super super late. ehhh. everyone late together. HAH. we played capt ball, heart attack (2 versions), daidi, the beat-hand game, speed/snap and hide-and-seek. capt ball was rather fun, but some people got injured, and alfred injured his thumb. i wonder how hes gna play the oboe tmr. =x hide-and-seek is super fun, and lame tooo. the fun part comes from the anticipation of the seekers finding us. qt, kk and i were the seekers for 1 out of the 3 rounds. its quite boring being the seekers. HEH. the lame part was when we wanted our juniors to find us. as in all of them search for qt, kk and i. we asked for permission to hide in the red cross tent. AND THEY DIDN FIND US. HAHAHHAHA. the game ended cos the red cross had to packed and leave the sch already. THANKS RED CROSS!

den bused home after that. yongxiang is a very nice junior i can tell. euphos have very nice junior (another example is kkq), which i yearn to have. they wont like, say, irritate you or whatever. thats why kk seems so happy in his section. RIGHT? HAH. they even have eupho outing. I WANT FLUTE OUTING TOO. buden, it seems weird. something is like missing. anyone can tell. perhaps we're not bonded enough, perhaps i dont have that strong bond with that. ahya, whatever. im leaving in like 2days. i wont cry, most probably. if im gna cry or whatever, im will do so in front of the girls only. HAH. actually, i dont really like my section. i dont dislike la. HAH. =x

i think some seniors are very nice too, buden, those juniors (example -, HAHA, PLEASE GUESS, KOK, I THINK YOU KNOW WHO. (: ) dont know how to appreciate, and even say them on their blog. your seniors talk during band for a reason loh. probably some other juniors are very tired and blah, den tell you to try to pay more attention, OR, telling some lame jokes to liven up the sections. and, im being very nice to not comment further on some other things. VERY NICE.

IM AFRAID OF PEOPLE WHOM IM NOT CLOSE TO. is there a name for this disease? i may be smiling at you and giggling in front of you, but inside, im shaking. =x just to let people who read this part know. (:

again, im very tired. i dont know why, no matter how much i sleep, i cant recover. :/ perhaps im sleepwalking? buden, most likely no, if not during i would have done so during chalet or band camp. HEH.

I WANT PRATA TMR!

1:01 PM;
&I'll let it all end here.